UP and Running

 Got AT*T UVerse installed today and it’s up and running.   I’m connected to the world again.  Well I still had my IPhone, but not the same,  Maybe I need to get an IPad.  But I need to get a job first.  But then again, I need to stick around until my son is born.

He’s still holding out for a better day I guess.  One of these days.   Next week they say Induce.   Hopefully he comes before next Thursday then.  My mom came for a visit and it’s the first time she’s met my new family.  It’s also the first time I’ve seen her in about a year and a half.
It’s been quite a while.   It’s been nice though.   Now just waiting for the lil guy to be born.

Upside down inside out differences

Have you ever assumed certain things or figured something would be a specific way so you never bothered to do it? It could be anything really. People make assumptions or come up with random theories all the time. Sometimes it’s to protect themselves. Other times it’s just because it’s the way they believe certain things. Recently I’ve been at a distance with most people. Yeah there are some who know some things but nobody knows most things. It’s a weird thing really. Trying to keep your distance and hold no real feelings or beliefs. I guess that was to protect myself. Or maybe it was something different. And then along comes something different but not that different.

Sometimes we push things away or never even attempt something because of beliefs, fears, assumptions, or deep rooted ideas. Or maybe it’s a fear of thinking you’re one way and this thing is nothing you’d ever think about. It’s different than you. It’s a lot different. So we never bother to take that plunge. Yeah sometimes that’s a good thing not to do something that might get us into trouble or something that probably won’t improve our lives. But sometimes taking those plunges where vulnerabilities are put on the table might surprise you. You may find out that those differences are also surrounded by a ton of similarities. Similarities you’d never would have found out about if you didn’t take that chance.

Nobody knows where anything will lead. The future is not written. You turn left or you turn right or you go straight or you just might turn around and wherever you may wind up normally radiates from decisions you make or don’t make. Even a non decision is a decision. Once in a while a decision you make might lead to something. It might not lead to anything. But you’d be surprised how what you thought probably isn’t true at all. I’m glad I listened to my roommate. Even if things lead nowhere I had a chance to discover certain things I would have assumed weren’t even a possibility. And who knows, maybe something will lead somewhere. You never know.