Sunny in San Diego

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And bam we are out of overpriced California. But I love San Diego. It’s not as crowded or dirty and polluted as Los Angeles. Plus the people are more down to earth and not as pretentious or fake. You wouldn’t believe how many name droppers there are in LA LA land.

Nobody cares to know you had eye contact with so and so or you were an extra of an extra on some tv show or movie nobody heard of. And then after all that bragging you go wait some tables at a 24 hour diner. Or youre just some trust fund kid with no purpose in life. Make something happen don’t brag about some fake life that doesn’t really exist. And don’t act like a damn big shot when you’re nobody. Too many losers in LA LA land who wait tables who think they are somebody special.
Plenty of people make things happen and work on their own things or they work on great projects. They don’t need to brag about “this big break” that will happen some day.

Big break? Come on now. The big break is when these wanna be actors and actresses and writers are long gone. People with no talent just want their 15 minutes of fame and sell their bodies and souls for what? 99 percent of them never make anything. They also don’t have any real purpose except
To become famous and rich. Sad really.

And then there arw The sob stories we always hear about. Hell even some who do make a few bucks and garner a bit of fame really never made it. And they never made it because it’s not just about fame and money. Yeah it might happen and there are plenty of bad ideas and actors and writers who become wealthy. Then they overdose or disappear and people wonder what happened.

“the creative geniuses” have a hard time they say. Might be True in a sense. The Jimi Hendrix or Jimmy Morrison’s or Michael Jacksons of the world were great artists who died young. Their madness made them great but also killed them. But the Corey Haims of the world? It’s sad to see somebody die and waste away their life but come on now. Nobody thought this was a sad day for hollywood. It was a sad day for his friends and family and fans. But he wasn’t some creative genius. Hell he wasn’t even any good when he was popular over 20 some odd years ago.

Sad? Yes. A true loss? Not moreso than anybody else who dies because of drugs and alcohol or anything else.

I’ve also come to the conclusion that besides a Santa Monica here and a Beverly Hills there, Los Angeles is really one big dump. Remove Hollywood and celebrities from the mix and who would ever want to visit or even live in Los Angeles? It’s really a blue collar town without many jobs. Shipping industy and sweatshops and a bunch of mom and pop like stores from a variety of cultures and personalities. But they all survive because it’s “Hollywood” and not much else. Like I said if there were no Hollywood LA might just be another Camden or Newark or Tacoma. Or it could even become like Detroit. Who knows. Places that have tons of potential and culture but due to No good jobs, various education issues, corruption and lack of hope, they are run down and in a sense, hopeless communities. I think Newark, NJ has improved over the Years but not enough.

It’s sad really.

Really sad when you see ads on tv from celebrities and politicians pushing for donations from normal everyday working people who can barely afford their mortgages or rent or even food. Make a difference? It’s kind of ridiculous when somebody gets paid 20 million a movie or 20 million a year to swing a bat or throw a football pushes people who might earn 12 bucks an hour for money. Americans always donate. Some people donate more than
Others but don’t need to inform the world that they are doing so.

Anyway Thats my Thoughts.

Have you ever been told that you ruined somebodies life? I don’t think I had that much power over anybody before until last week. Somebody, many already know who, sent me a message(this after she supposedly lost my number, deleted all contact on every internet site, etc) claiming I ruined her life. I never replied. I don’t stay in contact with people like that anymore. At first I tried to remain friends for whatever reason. Then it became obvious that there was no point remaining in contact. We weren’t friends. Not even close. It was more about showing up each other. She’d send pics or messages or leave a comment on how she’s in love, planning to have kids, doing this or that. I’d just complain about having no desire to date anybody and how I spend all my money going out all the time. And we probably only exchanged messages about 5 times in the past 4 months. Only times she contacted me was when she needed money. Anyway she got pissed the one time I told her no and the rest is history. Of course I deleted her number but I’ll get a text message from some random number saying I”m an a-hole or the whole ‘i ruined her life.’ I find that funny really.

Seriously after all the crap she put me through and continued to put me through she’s going to go down that path? What a pathetic excuse for a life. Maybe I shouldn’t go that far. No I will go that far. She made her choice or choices. She did what she did for whatever reason and continued to try and mess with my life. If we just broke up and moved on, then it is what it is, but she tried to leach and leach and then I guess when others weren’t giving her a damn thing anymore she blames me. Go figure I should just shut up. But those who know me know I won’t. Some people are just pathetic excuses for human beings.

She cheats, has an affair, refuses to get divorced, continues to cheat, calls the cops on me, tries to play some game where her and her bf screw me over, then tries to finagle even more money, then after I buy her a car and am the one who moves out, she can’t find anybody who will pay her to do whatever, she moves on to Texas. She hates it there and tries to get back with me. I wanted nothing to do with her so it wasn’t going to happen. Then she drives back to San Diego and stays over some guys house who she sells something or does something for and then doesn’t get paid and she wants me to handle the matter. She almost gets stuck cause she has no money and nobody is giving her any and she asks me for a few bucks. I wasn’t giving her anything more at that point. And I still tried to be her friend back then for who knows what reason. Wow….the stupidity of my stupid mind. Then who knows what happened. She met some new guy in Texas. A marine who supposedly she loved and he loved her. She gets a job and a tattoo. But then her car breaks down, she gets laid off, and she asks me for money. I tell her no and she goes psycho. I am glad she lives in Texas and not in San Diego because who knows what she would have done. I already got hit in the head with a damn frying pan once and she almost ran me off the road another time. Nobody really knows all the stories. People often wonder about certain things. Sorry but most of those other stories just aren’t leaving the vault. Sometimes you have to keep things locked up for your own sanity. Sometimes you wonder what the hell you saw in somebody for her to go that psycho and then you see moments over the years that might have explained those situations. Or maybe you just don’t want to look into that mirror and admit you were stupid. Or maybe it’s hard to figure out where the hell you went wrong. Maybe I should have listened to a little old lady a long time ago. A little old lady who told me I should just find a nice Jewish girl. Maybe I should have listened to her.