Egocentric manic depressive scantly clad dreams of something smaller.

egocentrical manic depressive scantly clad dreams of something smaller.

Keina and Dylvan hate one another.
They are from different worlds and live entirely separate lives and hold onto vast different life and death philosophies.

She was a frail human woman neglected by her opium addicted mother and abandoned by her abusive alcoholic father. This was only the start of her trials and tribulations though.

For she became cursed into a disease infested rat by a once rejected witch priest because of her acne, alcohol use and plenty of teenage rage and rebellion. This lasted eons.

Fortunately and unfortunaltely an aging demented but bright Salem like wanna be female witch chemist took her in as a pet and mistakenly morphed her back into a scantly clad prostitute slave of a woman. This allowed the witch to continue in her madness by pimping out Keina. This again lasted for eons until the old witch croaked on her own morphed chemicals.

She was free at last to be a human female. Yes she had diseases and emotional scars but she was free. A free human. Then she fell im love.

Tenloni Bizl Naxroinast was one of the oldest predated vampires around. He was once one of her clients. She became soo enchanted by this nomadic vampire and thus was convinced to be biten into that lifestyle. Except she didnt exactly become a vampire due to her unpure blood and disease infestations. She became a mutant morohed vampire human. To say she’s confused would be an understatement.

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I write like

My first example said I write like Stephen King. Posted that on Twitter and FB. Wrote something else and it’s James Joyce. Interesting site for a wasted minute while my son finally sleeps in between feedings.

I write like
James Joyce

I Write Like by Mémoires, Mac journal software. Analyze your writing!

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New lil Man

Lil Severin is a handful and only two days old. The labor took over 15 hours and it was a struggle. Deb is tough as nails and I love her even more.

The lil guy never sleeps. He’s stubborn. He always wants to be held. He likes to kick and punch already. He’s an escape artist and doesn’t like to be comfined by swaddle mes, mittens, socks or blankets. And he can yell and scream with the best of them.

And hey, he was one of eight born on the 10th at our hospital and he was the only male. And he was The only one kicking and complaining in the nursery as the others rested. Attention seeker already.

Everybody in the hospital knew us. I felt like a celebrity. He’s the popular little man causing all the trouble. I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

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UP and Running

 Got AT*T UVerse installed today and it’s up and running.   I’m connected to the world again.  Well I still had my IPhone, but not the same,  Maybe I need to get an IPad.  But I need to get a job first.  But then again, I need to stick around until my son is born.

He’s still holding out for a better day I guess.  One of these days.   Next week they say Induce.   Hopefully he comes before next Thursday then.  My mom came for a visit and it’s the first time she’s met my new family.  It’s also the first time I’ve seen her in about a year and a half.
It’s been quite a while.   It’s been nice though.   Now just waiting for the lil guy to be born.
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Waiting game

The waiting game.

One of these days the lil guy will pop his head into the world and I’ll be a first time father. Debbie will be a first time mom.

Can happen anytime anyday they say. Didn’t happen July 2 like one doctor told us. That was when he was supposed to arrive and all the way up until two weeks ago, that was the assumption. Then July 7 became the day but an ultrasound showed she was further along than that. Who knows.

This due date isnt an exact science. Many children dont arrive on their due dates. In fact, about 95 percent arent born on their due date. 95 percent. So who knows. Due dates is a loose term obviously.

So we wait. 40 weeks and counting. They say a lot of first time moms go into labor 41-42 weeks…but who knows. Just a waiting game now.

And it’s 10 months pregnant not 9.
Hell, full term isn’t until 37 weeks on.
I Always thought 9 months, 36 weeks, etc etc etc and I’m not the only one who thought this in the world.
But we wait…and wait…

One of these days.

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Coming soon

36+ weeks and counting and still in south Florida with no job. Had a semi offer but that is still a no go. Budgetary reasons. So whenever they actually have money and a budget in place I guess i’d have a job. Who knows when
That would be though. I was supposed to start over a month ago.

Now I just get weekly updates about the situation, if I’m still interested and if I have anything else on my plate or lined up. I imagine this could go on forever and really it’s just a job and not wow i can’t wait. As far as the west coast trip to Bev Hills, well, it went well but haven’t heard anything. Plus with a kid on the way that’s a stress to up and move at this point.

Hopefully something great comes up that I actually like with great career potential. Who knows.

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May hey

Been over a month but now living in Miami … Well fort laurderdale area … Instead of sunny San Diego.

South Beach is crazy but other than that south Florida is boring or dangerous. Job front is ok but waiting on intetesting things instead of settling on boredom waste filled jobs.

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Home of the dead LA LA Land

One two three four five six seven…
And bam we are out of overpriced California. But I love San Diego. It’s not as crowded or dirty and polluted as Los Angeles. Plus the people are more down to earth and not as pretentious or fake. You wouldn’t believe how many name droppers there are in LA LA land.

Nobody cares to know you had eye contact with so and so or you were an extra of an extra on some tv show or movie nobody heard of. And then after all that bragging you go wait some tables at a 24 hour diner. Or youre just some trust fund kid with no purpose in life. Make something happen don’t brag about some fake life that doesn’t really exist. And don’t act like a damn big shot when you’re nobody. Too many losers in LA LA land who wait tables who think they are somebody special.
Plenty of people make things happen and work on their own things or they work on great projects. They don’t need to brag about “this big break” that will happen some day.

Big break? Come on now. The big break is when these wanna be actors and actresses and writers are long gone. People with no talent just want their 15 minutes of fame and sell their bodies and souls for what? 99 percent of them never make anything. They also don’t have any real purpose except
To become famous and rich. Sad really.

And then there arw The sob stories we always hear about. Hell even some who do make a few bucks and garner a bit of fame really never made it. And they never made it because it’s not just about fame and money. Yeah it might happen and there are plenty of bad ideas and actors and writers who become wealthy. Then they overdose or disappear and people wonder what happened.

“the creative geniuses” have a hard time they say. Might be True in a sense. The Jimi Hendrix or Jimmy Morrison’s or Michael Jacksons of the world were great artists who died young. Their madness made them great but also killed them. But the Corey Haims of the world? It’s sad to see somebody die and waste away their life but come on now. Nobody thought this was a sad day for hollywood. It was a sad day for his friends and family and fans. But he wasn’t some creative genius. Hell he wasn’t even any good when he was popular over 20 some odd years ago.

Sad? Yes. A true loss? Not moreso than anybody else who dies because of drugs and alcohol or anything else.

I’ve also come to the conclusion that besides a Santa Monica here and a Beverly Hills there, Los Angeles is really one big dump. Remove Hollywood and celebrities from the mix and who would ever want to visit or even live in Los Angeles? It’s really a blue collar town without many jobs. Shipping industy and sweatshops and a bunch of mom and pop like stores from a variety of cultures and personalities. But they all survive because it’s “Hollywood” and not much else. Like I said if there were no Hollywood LA might just be another Camden or Newark or Tacoma. Or it could even become like Detroit. Who knows. Places that have tons of potential and culture but due to No good jobs, various education issues, corruption and lack of hope, they are run down and in a sense, hopeless communities. I think Newark, NJ has improved over the Years but not enough.

It’s sad really.

Really sad when you see ads on tv from celebrities and politicians pushing for donations from normal everyday working people who can barely afford their mortgages or rent or even food. Make a difference? It’s kind of ridiculous when somebody gets paid 20 million a movie or 20 million a year to swing a bat or throw a football pushes people who might earn 12 bucks an hour for money. Americans always donate. Some people donate more than
Others but don’t need to inform the world that they are doing so.

Anyway Thats my Thoughts.

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Leaving town

Two more days. That’s all she wrote.
Goodbye San Diego and hello Miami.
Train ride from SD to Los Angeles then from LA to New Orleans.
Then stay a night and rent a car onward from NO to
Florida’s panhandle and the Gulf coast.
Cross from west to east and wind up in
Miami, Florida.

so much packing and organizing and
Clearing out tasks. Not enough time but plenty. Find new doctors. Look for a place. Find a job. Paint some walls and prepare a crib and room. So much to do and not enough time in the day.
Growing up in a sense. Still me but different. I see things differently now. Still my crazy self but in a different way.
Why waste money on needless nonshowable things? Why wake up in the afternoon not remembering anything? Why pretend like staying fit and eating healthy matter when nights are spent filling the body with poisons.
Why lie to the mirror? Spent a long time being a kid really. Money spent on what? Then make some more bread to pretend like it didn’t matter.

moving on. New energy. Son on the way. Be back in San Diego in a few years. For now it’s off to Miami.

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Spam bam what the hell man ?

I’ve been busy lately with my busiess research, some side projects, job hunting, hitting the gym 5 times a week, and of course the pregnancy; which includes reading up on and researching parenting and child development. Add to that the fact the little guy kicks and pokes Debbie late nights and early mornings so a bit of sleepless nights gets included in that mix as well. And Debbie is only at 23 weeks pregnant.

It seems the little guy is stubborn and likes to play games. Maybe all kids do this, I don’t know, but even at the doctor the doctor gave up trying to catch him when rubbing the stephoscope(?) on Debbies belly. He was like “I’m not chasing this kid around all day to show you his heart rate.” So he just showed us through another ultrasound on the house. That was cool because a baby is expensive with no insurance or job.

Well Debbie has insurance but her deductible is $5k just for 70 percent coverage. And many things aren’t covered or barely covered. So a 500 buck test might only
add $250 to the deductible. But we still had to pay the doctor or lab 500 bucks.
I’d say we are going to owe like $10k and insurance will cover the other $10k.
So even with insurance it sucks. Debbie’s mom has been helping us out a lot from afar so far and I’m grateful for that. hopefully I find some job soon.

San Diego sucks for jobs at this point. I got a lot of calls about jobs in las Vegas, minnesota, Kentucky, Cincinnati, Connecticut, north Carolina, and Florida but Over the past month San Diego and Los Angeles areas have the same jobs open since 3 or 4 months ago. who knows. I’ve had a couple of interviews with companies in Florida so we’ll see where that goes. Debbie’s mom will be excited if we move to South Florida cause that’s where she’s at but i like San Diego. then again with no jobs can’t
really say it’s that great. But they say the economy is improving. For who?

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